. Haiko's Journal .

Plans for the winter holidays

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 23:01:47 GMT

Winter holidays have started!

I get really bored at school, so I wrote my plans for the winter holidays in the English class.

- tidy and clean my room
- translate Dir en grey lyrics to Spanish and wrie them all in my DEG lyrics notebook
- make another Dir en grey fanvideo
- cut my hair
- write letters for my friends
- copy all the music I have in the PC to CDs
- copy all the photos I have in the PC to CDs and also the haiiro no ginkas
- print CD covers
- try to draw Dir en grey members...like Totchi's drawings
- make a timeline {not really sure if I will make this}
- if I have more free time, make more fanvideos
- also, if I have more time, translate lyrics of other bands
- look for nice clothe designs
- watch movies
- pierce my ears (I want 3 piercings in my left ear)

And that's it for now, I think.

Tonight I'm going to watch a Dir en grey concert. And I'm going to chat a lot with my friend Kao. The usual things I do on Saturdays.
I'm going to send an e-mail to Megumi to see if she can answer me..

Bai bai!

I act 17 years old! but...I am 16 yet! xD

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 15:06:14 GMT

Stolen from pornoroughtype ^_^

Put an x on all the things you can do and find out how old you act!

[ ] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] I can do my own laundry
[x] I can cook for myself
[ ] I do my chores after being told once
[ ] I always do my homework/work
[ ] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations
[ ] I think politics are exciting
[ ] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers
total: 2

[ ] I show up for school/work every day unless I'm sick
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[x] I've never gotten a ticket
[ ] I watch talk shows and point out the incredibility of it all
[x] I know what incredibility means without looking it up
[x] I drink black coffee

total: 4

[x] I know how to run the dish washer..and/or do the dishes
[x] I can count in more than one language
[ ] When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.
[ ] I mow the lawn
[ ] I wash the car
[x] I can make adults laugh... without being stupid
[ ] I remember to water my plants
[ ] I study when I have to
[ ] I pay attention at school/work
[x] I remember to feed my pets.
[ ] I'm generally organized
[ ] I know the meaning of capital punishment

total: 4

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up
[x] I clean up my own messes
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee
[ ] I can go to the store with out getting something I don't need
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said
[ ] I listen to my elders
[x] I can type fast, because I type every day

total: 4

[ ] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something like that
[ ] I can watch politics and laugh
[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[ ] I can look at someone hot and not think of sex
[x] I have realised that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it
[ ] People have said that I act older than I am
[x] I can be sent on an errand and not get side tracked

total: 3

Now add up how many x's you have and put "I act (X) years old".

just the usual

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 16:18:30 GMT

I have the English Mid Term Exam today!! Nuuu I don't want to do it >_< because I have to go to the Institute and I am ill, I don't want to leave my house, I have to finish the damn Literature homework, and I hate English tests.

I was just...reading songs, and I cried with a Kyo song (again), because well, it's like...I feel like that. Not the entire song, so I'll just write some lines, because I don't feel like writing how I feel today, so I'll just let Kyo say that for me

...
the guilt, the desire, the weakness I felt,
I cried uncontrollably.
I'm sick of hearing these vague answers.
I WANT TO BE LOVED, MORE THAN ANY OTHER...
give me love... your...
pretend not to see everytime my love up and disappears..
I WANT TO BE LOVED, MORE THAN ANY OTHER...

So, now, let's my sadness as always and pretend to be good ^^

I can't control my mind, can't control...

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:05:49 GMT

I ruin everything..

and I can't concentrate!!! I should be doing homework, I have a REALLY BIG work to do for the horrible Literature class and I can't fuckin' concentrate, I can't stop thinking on things that I can't stop thinking since a while ago, and I feel like my head is going to exploit in any moment, and, and, and...god I wish that..oh, whatever, what is going to happen? This is killing me...
"What is killing me is what keeps me alive", I never forget that words..they're so true
I should try to do this HORRIBLE Literature homework or I won't pass the subject. I am starting to hate the gothic terror, fantastic terror, whatever this work is about..
And some Dir en grey phrase is perfect..."I CAN'T CONTROL MY MIND" !!!!!
Oh, Kyo, you're the best =3

Eeemm...

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 01:37:00 GMT

Everything I say to my mom seems to be a joke? She thinks I will change my mind, but I won't. She doesn't understand. She can't understand.
My life is horrible. And now is even worse..why??
If I can't have what I want, I don't want to live..
Since the first moment I promised myself things that I can't keep, why am I so weak? Why can't I change? why am I like this? Will I ever change?
Everything is better because Kao is there, and she feels the same way I feel, and for something very similar.
But...this is making me feel really terrible, and...I just want to lie in my bed and sleep, sleep, forever if I can't have what I want...

Getting ill?

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 15:50:09 GMT

Today I didn't go to school because I am feeling a little bit ill. I think I have angina, I mean, getting angina. And I feel like if I have fever.

Anyways, next week winter holidays starts *-*!! I have a lot of plans to do, then I am going to write them here.

I should make lunch, so I'll end here.

Oh, this X Japan song is so lovely...makes me wanna cry..

Where are you?

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 07:00:14 GMT

It's almost 4 am. I am chatting with my friend Kao, she makes me feel better ^^ I laughed a lot when she showed me her Dir en grey things by the webcam, because she showed me something really funny o^^o
If I can seem happy...is just, I am trying to hide it, because I am sad. Because she hasn't come back yet. She told me I have to be happy, so I'm trying not to worry, but I miss Megumi too much ;___;
I think I'll go to sleep in some minutes.

New journal

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 18:29:14 GMT

I am using my new journal for the first time.
I have decided to change it, don't know exactly why.
Right now I don't know what to say. So I'll end here.